From an Alien’s Perspective

You were supposed to be on leave today because your company "encourages" you to consume your alloted vacation leaves lest they be forfeited.

On your first day of leave, your boss requests you to go to the office to work on something which is not your responsibility anymore, but was assigned to you anyway because the client (a high ranking company official) requests that you do it.

Should you take that as a complement because you are a highly desirable employee?

Definition of terms (based on the Alien’s dictionary) :

Wife - the partner of the husband, responsible for fulfilling his, emotional, spiritual, and non-sexual physical needs.

Lover - the partner of the husband, responsible for fulfilling his sexual needs.

Housewife - the woman who ensures that the house becomes the home of the family.

Mother - the woman who takes care of the well-being of the children.

??? - a singular term which refers to a wife, lover, housewife and mother all in one person.

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As a lover and as a housewife, I would give myself a high rating. As a wife, there are lots of room to improve on. As a mother, I stink like a skunk.

Ten years into my marriage, with 4 kids as of to date, and I still do not know how to be a mother. Eversince I became pregnant with my fourth kid (fifth actually, but the official fourth died in my womb less than 4 months after conception), I have been wishing that I quit work so I can personally take care of my kids. I guess God really knows better. He did not give me that opportunity because He knows that I still have a lot to learn, especially on patience.

With 3 kids less than 4 years old, the youngest only 3 months old, I really had a hard time just maintaining peace at home when my yaya went on her Christmas vacation. Being a housewife is ok (although I did not attempt to wash the dirty clothes ‘coz I know somebody else will do that after Christmas), except for the part of maintaining sanity at home.

The bad thing is that I think I pre-maturely and harshly pushed my eldest daughter (she’s 10 years old now) to the "big sister" responsibility. She was never used to being the responsible person at home because I never forced her to. But when no one else is there to help me, and she was not able to do what I wanted her to do, I was quick to lose my temper. In fact, I’m afraid I might have said some things that would affect her in a negative way (I really have to do something about this…).

I guess my corporate life is taking more of my time that I do not have enough to practice being a mother. I should start learning time management (and follow the rules that I will impose on myself). That way I can slowly immerse myself to crazy but happy life of motherhood.

I almost cried this morning around 3AM when I came to the realization that no amount of effort I can do to finish making the gifts for my officemates and friends.  The wrapper simply looks hideous.  I cannot go on giving gifts that looks trashy.

Well, at least I was able to shop for gifts (toys) for the kids.

But I still don’t have gifts for my officemates…  WWAAAHHHHH!!!  Do I just buy instead???  But I love giving homemade gifts to them…  WWAAHHHHH!!! 

Wattudu??  Wattudu??  Wattudu??

So what if I did not win anything in the raffle…  The food was great and overflowing.  It’s my first time to see and try chocolate fondue (I only see it in Citibank Rewards Catalog).  I danced the night away until the DJs gave up on us and the security guards of the clubhouse hinted us to go quietly or else…

I think the dancing had a good effect on me.  All the pains caused by the frisbee game seemed to have vanished like the vodka in the shot glass being passed on by my officemate.  Hhhmmmm… Maybe it was the vodka.

What can I give you this Christmas?
Not a thing that I see will do
So I give you my love, my own true love
That will last the whole year through…

Aaawww…. What a sweet gift to give for Christmas… I could give a dozen of those to my husband…

If only that would be acceptable for the other persons who are expecting gifts from us.  I am really so tired this week that I don’t think I can have enough time to shop around for items in their wishlists nor make my traditional generic Christmas gift. 

But then again, if I don’t do my routinary Christmas shopping, I will miss out on the fun of wrapping presents, giving them out to excited children and see that joyous looks in their faces when they find that inside the box is the thing that they wanted the most…

I guess I better start shopping…

Two days after that envigorating frisbee game and my limbs are still aching like hell.  Just last night, while sitting inside the car, I can’t remove my shoes without a wince of pain.

Oh well… At least I can say that the pain was for a good reason…

Another game???  Yeah!!!

A few months ago, I started working in a project.  Our team was provided 6 PCs one of which I can use for myself.  But instead of doing so, I gladly volunteered using my personal laptop and set that 1 PC allocated for me as an extra in case the team would need more.  Now, the project is almost finished.  I’m still using my personal laptop for other office work, but I need to free this up soon because my husband is going to need it.  Unfortunately, the PC, which supposed to have been assigned to me, is now being used by another project that my boss is handling.  All my other teammates on that project already have their own PC, but me, I don’t have any, and they don’t have unit to assign to me anymore.

Moral lesson:  Never offer personal belongings for professional purposes.

Last night our sportsfest team had a frisbee practice with the other teams.  It’s my first time to actually play the game.  At first I was quite nervous, even if it’s a no-bearing game, because I’m the only novice in the team.  But after a few minutes into the game, I started to enjoy it and after the game, I was all flushed and out of breath, my right hand and arm are all black and blue from catching the fast approaching disk, my left arm is so tired from all the throwing, my legs are tired from all the running.  But surprisingly, I have never felt so happy and relaxed in my entire life (well maybe not in my entire life).  I don’t know what is it about the game that made me feel so, but I’m looking forward to another practice game so that I can level myself up for the next official games.

I just got inspired by a featured blog to convert my blog to a sort of an open diary.  Since I like to talk a lot about anything, "blogging" about it would save me the time of repeating the same story over and over again… Not that I don’t like to talk about it… Its just that I don’t want to tire my audience with my infinite raves and rants about the most mundane things…

From here on, my blog will have all my rants and raves and thoughts on anything and everything under the sun …

My friend wrote about the biggest mistake in her life is wanting so much to be free and spread her wings.  I would like to congratulate her for having done that mistake because it shows that she has enough courage to stand up and say "hey this is what I want and no hell or high water can stop me from doing what I want".  So what if she hurt the people she loves along the process.  They love her enough to understand her anyway.  Well, we did got mad at her for too long at time, but we really did not hate her or anything.  We were just mad at her because she did not listen to us her bestfriends who cares for her like her family would.  At least now, she can say that she has learned from that mistake and will never ever do it again.  She can proudly say to her children, because she had experienced it first hand, that it’s ok to spread your wings as long as you mind that advise of the people who love you.

I would say that being able to do just that is something that only a very strong person can do.  I wish I had the same guts that she had.  Up to now, being able to do what I really wanted for myself is still part of my wishlist.  Call it being selfish, but I’m sure most people have this gnawing feeling deep within of being able to say "been there… done that".  As of now, however, that is really only going to be a part of my wishlist because I’m at that stage in my life where my husband and kids should always come first.  I just hope that I don’t get to the twilight of my life regretting not ever having to do the things I wish I had done when I was younger. 

Someday, somehow, I know I would get enough guts - and selfishness - to do something for myself and myself alone that will be worth everything I will ever be giving up.